Thursday, April 23, 2009

Mixed Emotions

Have you ever had a moment in time when you KNEW that your excitement, your THRILL, was actually going to hurt someone else? And you couldn't help it? You still couldn't hide your own emotion?

That was me today.

For seven years, I've been waiting to hear the words: You're going to kindergarten.

It happened today. And in the exact moment when I wanted to do my own happy dance, I knew how disappointed my team would be. We've worked together for so long, so well, so happily, that splitting up is going to be painful for us all.

My best friend co-worker, wasn't at school today and won't be there tomorrow. She's away for the weekend at a church retreat. What a painful homecoming she's going to have! Yet, I still cannot contain my own excitement! I texted her, but that's not the way I wanted her to find out.

I love my other second grade teachers so much. They've helped me through so much: adjusting to a new school, first years of marriage, having a baby, losing two babies, M's hospitalizations and surgeries, tough school years, the happiest days. I love them, really and truly.

My dream has always been to teach kindergarten. I can't wait for the first day of school when I welcome all those precious babies to their entire school career! What a special thing to do!!

So, in 21 days, I will close this chapter of my life and impatiently wait to turn the page and begin the next chapter. But I have many mixed emotions.

9 comments:

Colleen said...

Congratulations to you!!!
I totally understand your mixed emotions. I am sure it will be a difficult adjustment, both for you and your current team. But... it sounds like an amazing dream come true.

I always thought I would teach Kindergarten too. I did a lot of preschool... and I even did the 2nd grade thing too. Never did make it to Kindergarten. Maybe one day.

Tami said...

I'm so excited for you that you get to teach Kindergarten! :o) Congratulations! You'll be great at it!

Christina said...

Oh wow, how exciting!! Defintiely some bitter mixed in with the sweet, but you will be amazing!

LegalMommy said...

Congrats! I know you've wanted to teach Kindergarten for so long!! Enjoy those precious little babies!

Allyson said...

Yay - Congrats to you!!!! I'm sure you will love it as much as I do!

Maggie said...

Congratulations to you!!

I'm sure it will be tough at first, but you will still get to see your second grade friends too -- and get to know the other kdg teachers better at the same time!

Kyla said...

Oh, how fun! Kindergarten is great.

Stacy said...

Congratulations to you Natalie! I know it will be a hard transition, but dreams coming true is a big thing. :)

Arizaphale said...

What a rollercoaster ride you've been having at school this year! Congratulations on this achievement. I love teaching Kinder (or reception as they call it in SA) and have been thinking of it with nostalgia lately. They keep you on your toes but at least they don't ARGUE with you :-D
("But Miss, I didn't do nothin' Miss")