Have you ever had a moment in time when you KNEW that your excitement, your THRILL, was actually going to hurt someone else? And you couldn't help it? You still couldn't hide your own emotion?
That was me today.
For seven years, I've been waiting to hear the words: You're going to kindergarten.
It happened today. And in the exact moment when I wanted to do my own happy dance, I knew how disappointed my team would be. We've worked together for so long, so well, so happily, that splitting up is going to be painful for us all.
My best friend co-worker, wasn't at school today and won't be there tomorrow. She's away for the weekend at a church retreat. What a painful homecoming she's going to have! Yet, I still cannot contain my own excitement! I texted her, but that's not the way I wanted her to find out.
I love my other second grade teachers so much. They've helped me through so much: adjusting to a new school, first years of marriage, having a baby, losing two babies, M's hospitalizations and surgeries, tough school years, the happiest days. I love them, really and truly.
My dream has always been to teach kindergarten. I can't wait for the first day of school when I welcome all those precious babies to their entire school career! What a special thing to do!!
So, in 21 days, I will close this chapter of my life and impatiently wait to turn the page and begin the next chapter. But I have many mixed emotions.