Monday, April 30, 2007
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Sunday, April 29, 2007
loving, tender, thoughtful, selfish
daughter of a teacher and an engineer, sister of a seminary student and a loan officer
lover of my husband, my daughter, and my daughter's siblings
feels blessed, scared, and loved
finds happiness in being a mother, wife, friend
needs to create, learn, teach
gives so much of herself, hugs, listening ears
fears the real me, God, war
would like to see my grandchildren, Italy, old age
enjoys creating and perserving memories, stitching fabric into outfits, looking at life through a lens
likes to wear black, my favorite jeans, worn thread-bare pajamas
resident of my home
Now you know a little more about me! I would LOVE to read one written by you about you (that is the AUTO part!), if you'd like to play along with me.
Here is the recipe for an autobio-poem:
line 1: your first name only
line 2: four traits (adjectives) which describe you
line 3: son/daughter of...brother/sister of...
line 4: lover of (three people, ideas, or a combination)
line 5: who feels (three sensations)
line 6: who finds happiness in (three items or places)
line 7: who needs (three things)
line 8: who gives (three things)
line 9: who fears (three things)
line 10: who would like to see (three things)
line 11: who enjoys (three items)
line 12: who likes to wear (three colors or items)
line 13: resident of (your city and street or road)
line 14: your last name only
C'mon! It's fun! I'm working on another one that uses words in a more powerful way. I might share soon. I'm also working on an "I'm from" poem that shares a little about my past. If I'm satisfied with the results, I'll share that one, too.
Put your link with your comment. I'll encourage everyone to stop by to check it out. I can't wait to learn a little more about you.
Friday, April 27, 2007
Here are two funny things that were said:
Me: He said endangered species. What does that mean?
Student 1: He's in danger!
Me: Of what?
Student 2: SPECIES!!!
(Thankfully one of my other students really did know what endangered species meant)
Batty, one of the characters, is acting particularly amusing in this movie.
One of my students said:"He's acting very crazy in this EPISODE!"
How in the world does she know the word episode????
I thought I was going to wet my pants.
I'm in class this weekend. My professor is awesome. She's forcing us to deal with racism/colorism issues--as teachers, that is so important for us to be aware of. I'd like to think I'm not a racist (which I REALLY am not, thanks for asking), but I do have thoughts about race. My experiences as a white woman, teacher, mother, wife, etc, have molded me into the person I am. My students' experiences as black boys and girls, hispanic boys, asian girls, white boys and girls mold who they are. Their cultures are different from my own. It's important for me to recognize that and to help them recognize the beauty in themselves. Whew...stepping off my soapbox now.
We wrote beautiful poems tonight called autobio-poems. I'll share mine tomorrow and the "recipe" for it. It would be a great thing to do for yourself or to have your own children write. You might be surprised.
Thursday, April 26, 2007
And other stuff:
I'm glad I didn't write about my meeting yesterday. I probably would have given way too many details that might have cost me my job if anyone read what I had to say yesterday! It boils down to the fact that one of my special ed students is getting the shaft. And it's all due to upper level school management politics and nothing to do with him or his family. He's being asked to move to another school because they (the powers that be) are changing the way our sp.ed. program is run at my school. He would be better served at another school--I can't get into all the details about why, etc. because of privacy issues. Now that I've had time to settle down and ask questions to the sp.ed. teacher who works with him and my administrator, I do agree that this other school is better suited to meet his needs, but it makes me so darn mad! He's been at my school since Kindergarten. We've met his needs just fine--okay, well, as good as we could. I felt like the parents were put on the spot yesterday to make decisions about next year without knowing all of the important information. I felt like they were expected to play football without any pads or a helmet.
It seemed to me that they were lambasted about the possible move to another school. In reality, the mother had been informed prior to the meeting that he could be better served in this other school, with teachers who are trained to meet his specific needs and to work with him on his deficits. However, there were very influential sp. ed. employees at this meeting who were rushing the parents into making decisions. There were two or three times that I actually spoke up (as if I were the parents advocate and not the child's!) because I felt like the parents were so overwhelmed by all this information that they couldn't possibly make certain decisions. I finally had to tell everyone that I wasn't signing anything until the parents had time to look at the new facility, meet the new teachers, and look over some of the information they were given. Thankfully the parents are very involved in making the best decision for their sp.ed. child, so they refused to sign anything, as well, until they had a chance to digest all of this information. They seem like fighters--and more power to them. I am not in a position to fight my employer. That would not be the right thing for me to do. But it is, without a doubt, the right thing for a parent to fight for the right of their child. If necessary, I will be the silent cheerleader for this family. If possible, I'll be in the forefront, cheering them on!
More other stuff:
Today was picture day at school. Would someone please shoot me the next time we do picture day??? My kids were nutso!!!! My kids wear uniforms to school. On picture day, they are allowed to change into street clothes for the five minutes they take their individual pictures. Then they are required to change back into their uniforms. Oh, dear....the drama that follows. Not to mention all the notes from mamas: please make sure she has a pretty smile; put her hair over one shoulder, make sure his shirt doesn't get wrinkled before he takes his picture, blah, blah, blah. THEY ARE CHILDREN!!!! His shirt is going to get wrinkled in between the restroom and the classroom. I'm going to force her to smile pretty. Ahhhh....the fun times at school.
That's about it. I'm off to stamp and scrapbook for a few minutes after I cook dinner.
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
Wish I had something funny or witty to post. M and I had a terrible afternoon, but it wasn't her fault at all. I was so darn tired and so upset by a meeting this afternoon, which I really want to write about, but don't have the energy. I'll tell all about it tomorrow, when it's not so raw and maybe I'll have some answers from my administrator.
I hope you all had a wonderful Wednesday. Only two more days until the weekend. 20 more days of students!! YEAH!
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
Here is one question for my paper--which is already 8 pages long:
"Discuss how you would describe community or communities. How would you describe the community context of the region you work? What resources are there? What resources are untapped? What resources feel out of reach? What ideas do you have regarding bridging communities and your classroom?"
WHAT!?!?!?! I'm writing a stinkin' paper on integrating drama into my curriculum!!!!!
What resources feel out of reach? My BRAIN, for one.
Monday, April 23, 2007
Sunday, April 22, 2007
M has decided she doesn't like me very much. Well, more accurately, she's decided to be a bit aggressive towards me. She likes to hit me. Not because she's mad. Not because I'm the meanest mama in the whole world (although she might think she when she's 4). She likes to hit me...hmm....just because. The first few times, I corrected her. A firm No! A squeeze to the hitting hand. A few other tactics. She just laughed and laughed. I realized she thought it was funny to get a response. So, today when she hit me, I just stared at her. Just stared and stared. Oh, golly. The tears and drama that followed my stare.
One time she hit me while I was changing her diaper on the changing table. I ignored her (remember the tears and drama? we were in a hurry and didn't have time for all that). So she pulled her hand back to swat me again. I gave her the stare, so she quickly put her hand down and the Nile River flowed forth. When I stood her up to pull up her pants up, she grabbed me and pulled me in for a HUGE, WET, TEAR-Y SMOOCHAROO and a GIANT SNUGGLE.
The next time she got the stare, same response. Nile River floweth, followed by a giant snuggle and a huge smoocharoo. Hopefully she won't hit tomorrow.
If you have any parenting suggestions, feel free to offer.
Saturday, April 21, 2007
1.) M and I left the house at 8:15 am to run errands (just a side note: If I was a SAHM, I would grocery shop every Friday morning at 8:15--no one is there and they are finishing stocking the shelves for the weekend...AWESOME!).
2.) I forgot I was supposed to meet a friend at my house before she left town.
3.) M and I raced home after only getting one errand taken care of.
4.) Took care of my friend and left to finish errands.
5.) MY FRIEND GOT IN A WRECK. So, M and I spent the rest of the morning helping my friend. No more errands.
6.) M's naps were all messed up.
7.) Decide to finish errands.
8.) LOST KEYS IN THE DEPARTMENT STORE.
9.) H can't come get us...he has patients. Who can pick us up? Someone who has an empty carseat...My friend E saves the day. H's brother runs to our house and opens it for us.
So, I was late to take dinner to Susie, Joe, Noah, Mimi and the new baby. I was late to help my friend cater last night.
TODAY WAS MUCH BETTER.
1.) The department store called at 9:00 this morning--SOMEONE HAS TURNED MY KEYS IN!!!! YEAH!!!!
2.) I helped my friend cater another event tonight...not only did she pay me, but the hostess tipped me very, very, very nicely! YES!
One other good thing. Yesterday at the deparment store, I got TWO new purses, one t-shirt and one pair of really, really cute flip flops. Total cost: $40! SCORE ONE FOR ME! (I'm into capital letters today!).
I have all kinds of cute M stories, but I'll save them for another day. I'm a lucky mama to have such a sweet, funny girl.
Friday, April 20, 2007
I'm very sad. I'm very sad that I feel like I've lost my youngest brother. I won't go into all the details about our relationship, but suffice to say that we were very close until a few months after M was born when he fell in love. I AM NOT SAD THAT HE FELL IN LOVE. Everyone deserves to love and to be loved. I'm so very blessed in my relationship with H--I want everyone to know and enjoy that kind of love.
I'm sad that with this love, my brother disconnected from our family. I'm sad that he feels the need to hide her from us. I'm even a little sad that she's the one he's in love with. She's not like "us." I wanted someone who fit in more. I wanted someone to complete my brother, not create this great divide. Whoa...I'm not blaming her...he's fully responsible for his own actions. And I bear some responsibility for my reactions to this relationship. I can be real here.
I've had a debate the past week. Is my role as my brother's sister more important than my role as my mother's daughter? On which side of this fence should I reside? Is my relationship with my brother and his relationship with our family more important than my mother's understanding and acceptance? (sorry Mom...keep reading) Truthfully, I was on the sister side until today. I was not ready to sacrifice my relationship with my brother. Now I've jumped the fence and I am FULLY on the daughter side. Mothers sometimes do know best.
There are three siblings: Natalie--I'm the oldest, T--he's graduating from seminary in May, and Z--the youngest and the one this post is about. During the early years of my marriage to H, I was sometimes excluded from the "family" things--sometimes the exclusion was intentional and sometimes it was most definitely unintentional, but it happened nonetheless. T and his wife are moving back to our hometown this summer for a while during a life transition. When my sister-in-law (L) is home, I know there will be times when my mom, L, and I do things together. I do not want to intentionally exclude Z's girlfriend. I know how that hurts.
But how in the world can I include her? So much deceit and secrecy shroud their relationship. She doesn't bring out the best in him. If she doesn't bring out the best in him, how in the world can he bring out the best in her?
There are many details that I can not include in this post for privacy sake and my own sanity. Perhaps if you knew those details you would have a clearer picture of my dilemma.
I love my brother, very, very much, and I want to love who he loves. But I don't trust this relationship. There is a web of secrecy and a tangle of lies that keep us, the family, away. How do we begin to mend this? How do I, as the sister, reach out to my brother and tell him how much I love and miss him? How do I tell him how much his niece needs him?
How do I get my brother back?
M was born with a club foot. There are several interesting things about this:
1.) She only had one club foot. Usually babies are born with two club feet.
2.) Her foot was formed that way. It was not because she was squished in utero (so it was not a positional clubfoot, as the MD's called it).
3.) I was born with clubfeet.
4.) My middle brother was not born with clubfeet.
5.) My youngest brother was born with clubfeet.
6.) Everyone in the hospital said it was not genetic.
7.) M's newest orthopaedist said of course it is genetic.
8.) M's first orthopaedist (who we ADORED!) was very interested in her story because I was clubfooted (not sure if that's a word or not) and only one of my brothers was. Does this mean the gene is passed from mother to child? Could it be passed from father to child? Where did it originate in my family?
Here was the treatment:
1.) Casts (pictures to come). For the first 10 weeks of M's life, starting when she was three weeks old (pictured above), M and I went to the ortopaedist each Thursday for a new cast. Each time, he could straighten her foot a little more.
2.) When M was ten weeks old, she had a tendon release surgery done. Basically, the orthopaedist (did I mention that we adored him?) took a special knife and cut her achilles' tendon. Prior to the surgery, her foot was very straight, but she held her foot like a ballerina en pointe.
3.) Four weeks in the same cast to let the tendon heal properly.
4.) From 14 weeks-6 months in corrective shoes full time.
5.) New orthopaedist now in the picture--other one moved away. New orthopaedist does not use the Dr. Brown's bar shoes, so we went to only using those at night.
6.) New orthopaedist decides he wants M in a special brace, no more shoes at all. M and I get fitted for the new brace, which the people SWEAR is covered by insurance (her shoes were not).
7.) Eight weeks after getting the new brace (and finding out the insurance does not pay for very much of it), M's new doc says she's fine and no need to wear the brace at all. What!?!?!?! We could have stayed in the stupid shoes for another 8 weeks!!!!
She still pulls her foot in a little when she walks, but her doctor thinks she will outgrow that as she walks more and more and strengthens her leg muscles.
That's about it...
Thursday, April 19, 2007
This is the little sister to M's boyfriend, Noah. So...that makes Madeline Kate M's future sister-in-law!
Oh, the feel of a newborn baby in your arms. She is perfect in every way and so, so sweet. She smelled delicious and was so beautiful. She arrived today at 12:32 pm, weighing in at 7 lbs, 9 oz and 19.5 inches long.
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
Cleaned my bedroom (as in, on hands and knees cleaning baseboards, vacuuming behind the headboard, dusting the inches of dust off the dressers)
Played at the playground
Went to bed
Now I'm off to sew some before I hit the sack tonight.
I'm on toddler duty for Susie--who just got called to the hospital. YEAH!! Hopefully Madeline will arrive before sunrise. M and I will spend some time with Noah tomorrow so his MiMi can be at the hospital with Susie and Joe and their new daughter. Exciting times for everyone!
Hey, if you have a minute, check out this site: http://boomama.net/?p=1019 There is an amazing woman named Heather who is in need of a little support right now. She's just been diagnosed with an inoperable brain tumor. The blogosphere is raising money, today only, to help her family out. If you don't read about her today, please, please pray for her. She's got three young children. Heather's faith is so absolute. You'll be inspired just reading about her.
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
Monday, April 16, 2007
I almost forgot about MBSM!! I can't believe it! Oh, that's right...today is the first official day of my SPRING BREAK! YAHOOO!!! A whole entire week with M and no one's schedule but our own. We spent the morning with my friend Susie and her little guy Noah and our other friend Lauren and her little guy Evan. Susie is being induced tomorrow, so their family is going to grow tomorrow! YEAH!! We helped keep her busy today. Then we took a nap and then we played and played and went for a walk. Ahhhh....a perfect day.
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Tuesday, April 10, 2007
The "diva" discovered that she is quite excellent at bossing her big cousins around. M only picked up about 2 of her own Easter eggs. She didn't want to dirty her hands, so she walked around and pointed and grunted at the eggs. Her royal subject (otherwise known as her 12 year old cousin) would gather the bounty and either place the egg in her basket if she held it out for him or give it to her and let her put it in her basket.
I have to run...the princess requires another goodnight kiss.
Sunday, April 8, 2007
Saturday, April 7, 2007
Friday, April 6, 2007
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Thursday, April 5, 2007
I sure wish I knew how to change pictures so they would go the right way!!! This is my "play" submission for Snap Happy at Picture This (http://picturethis.clubmom.com/. Photo one: M playing. Photo two: Mommy made M stop playing and take a bath. Ignore the cheese grits all over her face. She wants to feed herself.
Wednesday, April 4, 2007
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See you tomorrow! The word for tomorrow is PLAY. And boy, oh, boy am I excited about that!
Tuesday, April 3, 2007
Those delicious pink blossoms are the center of a 10 day festival around these parts. The blossoms only last for a very short while, so I try to take as many pictures of them as I can. I love, love, love that time in our city.
I hope Spring has sprung where you are!!!