Wednesday, January 4, 2012

Resolution. Or not.

I've done the whole resolution thing. Many times. Failed. Many times.

I'm not going there this year.
I've over feeling not good enough.
Not domestic enough.
Not {whatever, fill in any word here} enough.

I've done the "pick a word for the year" approach to change. Not going there either. I love that idea far more than resolutions, but, again...I'm not going to fail.

But I am going to do one thing. It's a matter of choice--making a choice that is right for our family, for our kids.

I'm going to say "no." I'm going to get rid of the clutter that takes away from our family. I'm going to be realigning my priorities so my kids aren't hustled from mom-to-dad-to-mom-to-bed. I'm going to be with them more by saying "no" or "I'm sorry...we can't do that" or "I'm cooking tonight; we can't meet you for dinner."

I've been stretched too thin, thinking that I could do it all, be it all. I can't. God didn't make me that way. I love serving others. H loves serving others. This phase in our life requires us to serve at our home. H is in a place where his commitments can't be realigned. It is what it is.

So, instead of a resolution, there is going to be a choice. I'm sure I won't always make the right choice. I'm sure I'm going to find myself, time and time again, over committed or away from home too much and too busy. But I'll just make the CHOICE again to be at home.

1 comment:

Arizaphale said...

Brilliant. Love it. Must think like this too! Sometimes I wonder whether we are afraid to stand still. We teachers. Nature's control freaks. Are we afraid that if we say no and focus inwards, that we won't like what we see? That we will feel it's not enough? Or that we will not be able to make 'what we see' into 'what we want it to be'? I don't know. Whatever it is, we need to face it, overcome it and revel in the job we have been given to do by God. Be the mothers to the families God has blessed us with. His Grace is sufficient for us. xxxx