Simplify: HA!

I shouldn't have made the proclamation that simplify was back in motion.

As a mother, I should always be able to fix what is wrong in M's life. That's part of my job description.

Not yesterday.

M was under the weather yesterday. We went to Sunday School, she just sat around. She was animated, but not very active. I took her into church with us. She just sat around then. I only had to tell her once to hush (VERY unusual). We went to lunch and she ate about 1.5 bites of her lunch and didn't really interact much with her friends at all.

She took a 3 hour nap. Actually, I woke her up after 3 hours. And new immediately that something was VERY wrong. She was hot. Not just I'm-warm-from-snuggled-sleeping. HOT. As in the-house-is-on-fire hot.

I got dressed and took her to the local pediatric after hour joint.

Where she had blood drawn (for the second time in 6 days).
Where she was cathed THREE times before it worked and they got any urine.
Where she had a little procedure done on her special area because it was growing closed.

Where we sat for 3 hours.

And I couldn't do anything to make it better. Her pitiful screams echo in my mind today. While they were trying to cath her, I was responsible for holding her head and arms. Her precious little eyes begged me to make it all better.

Physically, I feel better than she does, but emotionally, I'm all used up. It really stinks seeing your little baby endure so much, knowing you can't make it go away. That more pain must happen to make it all go away.

This morning we had to go see our regular pediatrician. When we pulled into the parking lot, M said, "Mommy, I wait RIGHT here."

Honey, I wanted to wait right there, too.

I'll post MBS later today. I didn't have time last night to download my pictures from my camera.